You know being an adult it not always all that it is cracked up to be! As a child I always wanted to “grow up”. I daydreamed about driving around town, staying up late, having my own house, etc. No one tells you that with all of that comes a small little thing call RESPONSIBILITY. Being responsible sucks, as my niece would say! Right before my 30th birthday I bought my first home. I had been looking at houses for some time and just couldn’t find the right one for me. One day as my realtor and I were driving away from yet another disappointing showing, a for sale sign caught my eye. Behind the sign stood a large two story all brick home. I gasp “Wow look at that one”. My realtor immediately was quick to point out that such a house was out of my price range. Maybe it was the look of sadness that crossed my face, or maybe the audible sigh that caught in my throat, that made my realtor stop but stop she did. She said “Well it couldn’t hurt to take a look at it”. We stepped out and retrieved a flyer sitting in a box next to the for sale sign. Yes this house was certainly out of my price, but not as expensive as we had both originally thought. My realtor promised she would look into it but again warned me to not get my hopes up as it would more than likely not work out.
Fast forward to about a month later and I am literally standing in front of my brand new home turning the lock for the first time! How amazing the feeling was. I was a home owner! I was on cloud nine. That lasted all of about two days until the reality of what I had just done hit me. Bills, Bills, and more Bills! Not only had I went from a two bedroom apartment to a four bedroom house but I also inherited a large yard to mow as well. By a miracle from God the previous owner of this home did come down $10,000 off the original asking price which definitely helped. But even with the $10,000 reduction it had taken every bit of my savings for the down payment and closing costs. I had a few hundred dollars in my checking account to cover my groceries and bills until I would be paid again. Gone were the days of blowing my entire paycheck on makeup and shoes and in walks responsibility.
But let me tell you the goodness of my Father. At the apartment complex I lived in prior, it was furnished with a refrigerator, washer, and dryer. So when I moved into the house not only did I not have a refrigerator or washer and dryer set, but I also didn’t have a lawn mower. All of these things I would need immediately but I did not have the money to afford to buy any of these things. I can’t describe it but I felt like God was really moving in the purchase of this home. Every obstacle that stood in my way was resolved over and over. At the time I would lay in the bed and question God, “God am I crazy? Do you want me to purchase this home or I’m I just wanting this home out my own fleshly desires? How can I afford not only to buy this home but to purchase the appliances to go with it?” I knew I could have asked me parents to help but I didn’t want to do that. So I just prayed that if it was God’s will it would work out. And work it out He did! The previous owner decided to throw in the brand new refrigerator at no extra cost. And then because he didn’t want to deal with moving everything he sent me as message asking if I would want to purchase any of his old furniture and appliances! I could have fainted. For about $500 I was able to purchase a new lawn mower, two full bedroom sets, a queen mattress, a full size mattress, patio table with chairs, a gas grill, a computer desk, and two large hanging mirrors. And guess what else??? Yes you guessed it, a washer and a dryer! Now they were not brand new but most certainly got the job done. All I could do was fall to my feet and thank my Father above for His blessings.
Now about 8 months later it is my first Spring in my new home. I will not lie and say things have been easy. They most certainly have not but God has provided and I am able to pay all my bills on time with a little extra in my savings account. One thing that I have had to be more careful about is “extravagant splurges”. You know things like $60 eyeshadow palettes or $300 purses. Instead I have a running list of things I need. Such as garden tools, a wheelbarrow, paint, a new vacuum cleaner, etc. Much simpler, boring items! A few days ago I was having one of those times when I was feeling sorry for myself. Can you believe it?! With all that God has blessed me with and yet every once in a while I just want to blow an obscene amount of money on something useless like a new outfit even though I have a whole walk-in closet full of clothes. But I was looking around at my neighbors home as I walked my little dog and I noticed all their beautiful landscaping. Many had hired professionals to plant an array of beautiful plants of all different colors in their yards. One neighbor even had a bulldozer remove all his grass only to have small squares of the most beautiful grass you had ever seen placed square by square covering his entire front and backyard. Other neighbors have fancy lawn mowers that make beautiful checkard patterns in their grass. I on the other hand not only am the only person in my subdivision with a push mower, but I couldn’t afford to go buy many plants or flowers. To be honest it just wasn’t in my budget.
Today I was sitting out on the porch sipping on a cup of hot steamy coffee and watching my dog play in the front of the yard. As I was in a daydream something caught my eye and I looked to the side and I noticed some beautiful roses blowing in the wind. The rose bush that the previous owner had planted many years ago was blooming exquisitely. When I moved in last year I contemplated digging the bush up because it was so badly eaten by insects that it looked horrible. But instead I had cut it back and didn’t give it another thought. But now it was blooming beautifully. Bright red blooms blowing in the winds, prettier than any bouquet in the store. Then as I continued to looked at my flower beds I noticed the daylilies were blooming bight yellow. On down three large hibiscus plants offered the most vibrant blue blooms I had ever seen. I walked off the porch and down out onto my front lawn. I stood gazing up at my house and all these charming plants in full bloom. All plants that had been planted years prior before I had ever even seen this house. And my view was beautiful. Not just beautiful from the flowers but beautiful because I saw the love of my God.
My Beloved knew I would purchase this home one day. And he knew it would be hard and I would be frustrated. He knew I would have moments of ungratefulness and times that I felt sorry for myself. But he not only supplied me with the big things I needed such as the refrigerator, lawn mower, and washer/dryer. But he sent me flowers! He even covers the little things.
With tears streaming down my face I felt ashamed that I ever questioned my God. That I ever was ungrateful for all He has done. See your God is faithful in all things. Covering you in the hard times and the good times. He loves to spoil you with His blessings! To see you smile! He loves to meet your needs and see your gratitude. The bible says in Matthew 6:30, “And if God cares so wonderfully for wildflowers that are here today and thrown into the fire tomorrow, he will certainly care for you. Why do you have so little faith?” (NLT). Luke 12:27 says, “”Consider how the wild flowers grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you, not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these” (NLT). Why do we worry and fret that we won’t be able to meet our needs when our Heavenly Father is saying “Beloved just let me handle this for you. I am big enough to handle all your needs. I had this all worked out before you even knew it was a problem”. So today as you are confronted with many obstacles remember your Creator above. He is infinitely able and willing to meet all your needs. Let Him spoil you with His goodness and lavish you with His love!