Journal Entry from Sitka, AK in November 2014:
Sometimes we get so busy in life that everything seems to blur together into one big day. Even as I travel to different places I notice some of my same behaviors in every place that I go. I am a very outgoing person but when I get stressed I find myself just wanting to hide away from everyone. I find myself more short tempered and easily annoyed. But it is days like today that make me see how stupid that is.
As I sit out on the rocks watching for whales at Whale Park in Sitka, I think to myself “God is here”. It is just very simple, yet so profound. God Is Here. He is all around us. But not just around us on the good days but also the bad days as well. On days when I am stressed and think for sure I must be the dumbest nurse practitioner to ever exist on the planet, He is still right there. Coaching me on. Whispering in my ear to trust him.
Why is it that I only know God is here on days like this. Days when I am consumed with nature and all that He created. Days when all I can hear are the breaths I am taking and the crashing of the waves on the rocks in front of me. Because God didn’t just create nature, He created each of us. He created the people I see everyday. My coworkers that work alongside me. And even the one ever-so unpleasant patient that is always annoyed with me no matter how nice I try to be to them. He created it all.
So I have made a vow to myself to remember that yes God is here. He is right here with me in happiness and sadness. In excitment and loneliness. In confidence and fear. So I take this day and remember that He is right here with me but He is also with me when I feel so far away from Him and His grace.
Remember not only on your good days but also on your bad ones that God is right there with you. Coaching you on and He is so proud of you! He looks at you with loving eyes and says “Yes that is my creation in whom I am well pleased”. Let his love consume you and replace all the things in your life that don’t matter. Let us rejoice in whatever our circumstances may be because we have been promised that JOY comes in the morning!
Photo Descriptions: 1) Taken while I was at Whale Park in Sitka, AK, 2) Whale coming up on the water in front of me, 3) A rainbow after a storm in Sitka, 4) Sunset in Sitka